As a kid, I always heard the jokes about the worrisome mother. I never really felt like my mom was one of those. She wasn't the mom who made curfews or lots of rules. She never made any issues about where I was, or who I was with. I always figured that my mom simply didn't worry, and therefore, I never really got the joke.
I get it now.
As I'm writing this, it's 4:30 in the morning. I didn't just wake up. I've been awake for many hours. But I don't have trouble sleeping regularly. I go to sleep generally in the 10 PM hour, and I sleep until 6:15 every morning. It's a really good night's sleep and I always feel refreshed in the morning.
But tonight is different. And as a mom, I have gotten somewhat used to this. My seven year old daughter woke me up at around 1 AM and said that she couldn't sleep. So the first thing I did was let her cuddle with us. I assumed that we'd all be back asleep within minutes. (Or at least my husband would be).
While lying in my bed, I felt my daughter's arm next to mine. It was hot. Without even putting a hand to her forehead, I knew she was sick. The thermometer confirmed my suspicions. 102.5 - she was sick, all right!
I got up, got her some meds, a drink, and a bunch of kisses. Then I tucked her back in and she went to bed.
Now everyone is asleep except for me. Why am I still awake?
I have taken care of my daughter so she can fall back asleep. And I can't sleep.
I have checked on her again, in addition to her little brother, and still I can't sleep.
I have checked my email, facebook, and twitter.
I have caught up on all of my outstanding "Draw Something" games.
I have put in a load of laundry.
I have loaded and started the dishwasher.
I made 2 different long distance phone calls.
And I rested in my bed for 3 hours. Still I can't sleep.
I have become the mother that I never knew I would be - the mother that my mother has always been. And I finally understand her coffee addiction :-)